No makeup. No filters. No fancy lighting.
Just swollen eyes, a tired heart, and the raw truth of what it means to keep going when everything inside you wants to stop.

Yesterday Broke Me

I had one of the worst emotional breakdowns I’ve had in a very long time.
I cried endlessly.
I couldn’t sleep.
I couldn’t eat.
I couldn’t even take a proper shower.

I was emotionally exhausted, yet I had to keep working — nearly 24 hours straight, non-stop.

And in the middle of that chaos, I made a small mistake at work.
Not because I didn’t care, but because pain clouded my focus.
Fatigue took over.
My heart had no energy left to give.

Reality Hit Hard

I was supposed to go home:

• Shower
• Eat a warm meal
• Rest for a few hours

But instead, I found myself returning to work to fix what I had done.
Exhausted. Broken. Still trying to hold it all together.

I slept over at my workplace.
I had nothing with me.
Just me… and my silence.

I had to ask colleagues to bring me a toothbrush, a towel, and the basics.
And somewhere in that moment, something deeper broke inside me.

Everything Collapsed at Once

• My LinkedIn account got blocked
• My book launch is only a week away
• My digital marketing campaign still isn’t live
• Everything I’ve built — I’m doing it alone

And the scariest part?
I didn’t feel like I could share this with anyone around me.

I was scared.
I am scared.

But that’s not abnormal.

You’re Allowed to Feel Everything

Yesterday, I questioned everything:

Why is my life so overwhelming?
Why do I have to go through so much pain?
What did I do wrong to deserve this level of suffering?

But then, I realised something important:
We all break.
We all bleed.
We all make mistakes.
We all have days when nothing goes right.

We are not machines.
We are not robots.
We are human fragile, fierce, and full of emotions.

So Today, I Choose Honesty

Not polished.
Not perfect.
Just real.

And I want you to know:

• It’s okay not to be okay
• It’s okay to cry
• It’s okay to feel overwhelmed
• It’s okay to feel lost, broken, or scared
• It’s okay to make mistakes when your emotions are too heavy to carry
• It’s okay to fall apart

Because sometimes, that’s what the journey looks like especially when you’re doing something big. Especially when you’re doing it alone.

This Picture Isn’t Perfect

No makeup. No styled hair.
Just a plain T-shirt, pants, and swollen eyes from crying.

But this…
This is what resilience looks like.
This is what real transformation looks like behind the scenes.

To Anyone Walking Through Their Own Storm

Hold on.
Keep breathing.

Please remember:
Your best days are not behind you. They’re still waiting for you.

I’m holding on to that hope.
And if you’re struggling too, I hope you will too.

We don’t always rise like phoenixes.
Sometimes, we crawl forward with trembling hands and tired hearts.
But we rise, nonetheless.

This isn’t a sympathetic post.
It’s a reflection a glimpse into the silent battles we all fight.

Make your life better. Not perfect. Just better.
And never stop rising.

With love,
Soniya Ragevan
Author of Till We Meet, My Love 💞💯